ACTRESS 25 CHICAGO

”I accept the gift of light shining on my path revealing the way to my highest good.”

Mom to Me, 9/27/1992

Chicago

5/19/92

I haven’t been in a show for a month except “Cannibals” (Cannibal Cheerleaders on Crack) those two Saturdays.  

Schiffra didn’t cast me. I think David Zak hates me.  

Had a callback for Pepto Bismal at Leo Burnetts - the 4th time for this now - shit!

All my pix were gone at Emilia’s - Nick was nice - was told that the only way agents will meet you from Harrisse (Davidson agency) is to see a show of yours.

Rorie was nicer to me at NTN (National Talent Network agency) AND on the train that one day.

My scene partner is great - he’s worked with Shakespeare Rep. (now Chicago Shakespeare Theatre) and Bob is his roommate. I think Bob likes me. The class is okay so far. I’m dying to read my scene already.  

Bob is Bob Scoggin, veteran actor at Shakespeare Repertory and teacher of my Shakespeare Folio Technique Scene class.  

Ego boost at work today. Bill R. said I was the “audition queen” (“too bad you never get cast in anything” in jest.) At least someone notices.

Shakespeare Rep. has to call me in for Lear or at least their matinee kids series.

I bought a new address book for business names only - I’m important now.

NEW YORK HEADSHOTS SHOOT

From May 31, 2018

Thursday

Headshots shoot with Doug Gorenstein (3rd time.) Sarah did hair and make-up. Sam along.

1st time with Doug in Michigan - he came over and shot actors. Simple. Good. About 10 years ago.

Then 4 1/2 years ago - January in NYC - garment district. Now same building, different studio.

Doug from Michigan - talked hockey with Sam. Funny how we can all relate some how.

He was set photographer on Celebrity Apprentice - yes, our current Prez - then and now, the same.

Walked after back to hotel. Same as last year - Marriott Fairfield, CPW.

Jenny (step-bonus-daughter) came and we ordered pizza and salad to room.

Oh, saw Sponge Bob the Musical matinee. Sam's school band teacher knows the conductor/musical director.

Friday

Took Sam to Statue of Liberty and Ellis Island and dinner with cousin Zach and Jenni. Found ancestor's name in computer database.

Saturday

At Jenni and Dan's (husband/Long Island.) I could live in New York. 1 bedroom, upper west side. I could do that. There's something about walking everywhere, looking and making beauty in smaller moments.

And the culture.

And the opportunities.

I really could BE here. Yes.

From Set Tuesday (the I See You Film)

Greg Williams and I both know Donna Biscoe. He's been her husband on about 4 films. And, Chicago. He and Bruce A. Young were in Troilus and Cressida - Shakespeare Rep's (now Chicago Shakespeare Theatre) 1st play - my stage combat class in college (Roosevelt University) went to see Bruce (our teacher) in it. Greg was on stage at them all - Goodman, Northlight, Wisdom Bridge - all the Equity houses where I dreamed of working.

All I wanted then was to be a union working actor - like the Mockus's (Tony Mockus, Sr. and Jr.) - Petrea Burchard (Sandel) - Paula Scrafano and John Reeger - Barbara Robertson - Bruce.

Greg told a great story about John Reeger.  He stutters. Call his house and he puts his kids on - but NEVER, not once saw him miss a word on stage!

Maybe if I'd set my sights higher then - want to be a Star - I would have settled around Chicago and the Equity theatre sooner. Or NYC. Instead of living immediately with boyfriends and fiancees - married - waiting tables.

I wasn't selfish enough. Confident enough. Secure in my sense of self and being alone. ("And you give yourself away. And you give yourself away. And you give, and you give, and you give..." - U2, With or Without You.)

Take the money and run.

Sense of self.

Let it breathe. Let it be. "If you build it they will come."

Casting from Instagram accounts now - Followers.

I want to build a different account.

I want to shopping. Trainers. Pink jeans. Summer pull-on sweater. For Sam, jacket.

Audiobook bodice ripper - Sweet Tempest - and maybe booked Nationwide CAT II VO's, auditioned for 2 today - we flew out and did 3rd Thursday on Garage Band (didn't book.)

Thanks to Director (offer to help promote film locally or will fly out.) Go through 2nd AD - text (or agent/website.)

2 books last week. Whisper Me This and Hollywood Heir. More steamy romances from Brilliance (Audio.)

Tuesday

Flight home from NY. 235 headshot images to narrow down.

Sam 1st baseball game tonight.

Following Week

Watched taped Tony's this morning and saw Jeff and Kathleen (Daniels) in audience. I'll forever get excite seeing people I know on screen!

tcl
8/30/18